Twoo Love. (Princess Bride)

    Today I was told that "We're not penguins, we don't mate for life."
And I'm sorry, but I just don't believe that. I believe that most people are with the wrong people, and try to stay with people because of what they once had, or in some cases, never had. I definitely believe that we soul mates, and most of us aren't lucky enough to find them.
   I can only hope and pray that I'll find mine. I'm saying this because, I've seen true love before my eyes that literally has lasted a lifetime. And yes, they fought, and got angry but making up is the best part, I've seen more love in my life at 16 than most people get to witness. I'm blessed to know quite a few people that have lasted. My Uncle Buddy and Aunt Ruth being one of them. They were the cutest little old couple anyone ever saw. Mark and Shelia Porter met when they were 14 and are now 50 and still look at each other with all the love in the world.
   Now, maybe you don't believe this, but I'm a hopeless romantic and I'm waiting on that good, sweet, guy that will make my world one day. A day very far from now, because I don't want to be in a serious relationship. I'm not ready to be. I'd like to go on a date, have fun, and maybe even get kissed for the first time, but hey, I'm not rushing at all. I have my whole life ahead of me.
Hearts and Penguin Soul Mates. <3
- Kimberlee.

Friends. :)

    I wanted to post this last night, but of course, my internet wasn’t working. I realized today how much happier and better off I am since I met my amazing friends that I have now, and embraced my inner nerd and awkwardness. I know I’ve always been awkward and silly. But until I met my current friends, I tried to fit in with other people, and tried to be like them because I just wanted to belong. In middle school, and I’ll probably post an entire back story on it,  I pretty much just did whatever everyone else did because I wanted friends, because at the time, I was having a lot of family trouble and I needed friends. But looking back on it, until 8th grade, I only had two real friends, and that was Kaitlin and Brittney. In eighth grade when I met, well I’d met them before, but became friends with Sara, Elizabeth, Paige, and Dylan is when I realized that they liked me because of who I was. Not because of who I was trying to be to fit in with them. I never tried to be someone else with them, not once. (I never did with Kaitlin either, and Brittney I’ve known since I was born.) I’ve always been able to tell them exactly how I feel without worrying. And I can’t tell you guys how much that means to me. When I sit in class, in front of Sally, who I wanted to be friends with at one point, and hear what she says in Honors English, and I get excited that I get to read a new book and think about it, I wonder how different I’d be if we hadn’t had Mr. Holt’s class together(besides Paige and Elizabeth, but Paige sat with us at lunch, and I don’t really remember when I became good friends with Elizabeth.) I think I would’ve turned out a lot more ignorant, because you guys are so much more mature than everyone our age. I think we all are. We’ve realized that high school matters because it gets us to college, and that definitely matters. We all actually try and don’t piss and moan every time we get an assignment.
You guys are there for me anytime I need you. Even when I’ve made a huge stupid decision, you ride it out with me. Or when I just need to vent about the idiots that I’ve come in contact with that day. I know that sometimes I’m hard to get along with, and have made horrible decisions when it comes to guys, but y’all are always, always, there no matter what. I can’t even begin to thank you or tell you how much I love y’all. You all deserve your own post because I love you all in different and awesome ways, and you just might get it, but for now, thank you and I love y’all so much!!!

Hearts and amazing friends. :) 

- Kimberlee.

Stupid, stupid people.

Lately, I have been noticing that there are so many freaking idiots.
For instance, everyday, there are people in my honors english class that just sit there, complaining every time we get an assignment. That class is not that difficult, it's really not even that much work.
And in my geometry class, which trust me, I hate as much as the next person, there are people that just sit there when we have time to work on homework. It makes me so freaking mad. You can get by in that class if you just try. That's what I do, I try. And I don't have the best grade in there, but I'm passing. And I plan on bringing my grade up, because you can retake things.
And, the area where my locker is, there's three couples, always making out, always. For the love of god people, STOP making out in front of my locker! It's so annoying. lol
Sorry for the rant, but I just needed it.
Hearts and stupid people.
- Kimberlee.

great weekend. :)

Last week, I was sick, and felt like sleeping the entire time i wasn't at school.
But, thank goodness, by the time yesterday rolled around I was feeling much better to have my birthday party.
I seriously had soo much fun. My friends are amazing, and I love them so much. :)
We stayed up till like, I don't know, at least 3 in the morning, talking about everything. Because that's what best friends do. :)
And today, one of those amazing friends got treated like crap by a stupid boy.
Sorry, guys if you're reading this, but most of you are stupid butt holes. I've met very few actually sweet guys. And, this girl we're talking about? Deserves the very best. I know that Sara already posted an entire poem about it, and girl, if you're reading this, she's right! A thousand million percent right. You deserve a guy that brings you flowers, or plays pokemon with you when you've had a bad day.
You're one of the happiest people I know and don't let him ruin that!
That goes for all of my friends, we're not gonna let each other be treated badly. I told you last night, next time, slap me in the face when I like an idiot that's not good for me! I value y'all a billion times more than any guy. (unless of course it's a one night stand with Kellan Lutz, I'd just have to repent for that :P haha I'm kidding.) :)
So, Captain Sunshine, we love you gurlfrand! Keep your head up :)
Hearts and good friends.
- Kimberlee.

Just keep smiling.

Sorry I haven't posted in a couple days. It's been an extremely long weekend, and two days.
Yesterday, we laid my Nana to rest. On my 16th birthday. It was happy and sad.
Happy, because, she's not hurting anymore. And, I got oreo balls as a cake substitute. lol
So, even when I feel sad. I try to keep smiling because Nana always had a smile on her face.
Sorry, I'm super tired, and I can't think straight.
So, i'm gonna go study.
Night.
- Kimberlee.

Nana.

Dear Nana,
 You are one of the strongest, and most determined people I have ever been blessed to know. You brought two amazing people into this world that I could never imagine my life without. You fought every day of your all too short life. 52 is too young. You should at least get to meet your new grandbaby on the way. But i know that you will. That you'll be with us, every day. And that you wouldn't want us to be so sad. And that you'll never be in pain again. But we'll never be able to have a get together with your designated spot at your dining room table, with a chair there, and not think that you should be there in your power chair.
but now you're with people that you've missed, people that you've wanted to meet. Say hi to William for me, would you? Granny and Papa have their baby girl back.
But Memay is the oldest sibling, and she buried you and Uncle Tony. And i just think that is so sad. I think it's awful for Mindy to have to lose you right now, a mom is your savior. That's what a mom always is. If nothing is going right and there's no one to talk to? There's always Mama. and now Mindy has to become a mother without a mother, and I think that's pitiful. I couldn't imagine losing my mom. Granted, until today, I've never really lost anyone close to me. And I know I'll get through it, I know we'll all get through it. We'll maybe even become closer because of it. That'd be what you want. You hated people fighting. Especially us. i don't know if I'll be able to go see Breaking Dawn Part 2, now. You were the one that got us all tickets every year, we ate dinner/lunch together and had a Sweeney Lane Girls Day. And they were so fun.
  I'll never forget sleeping at your house all the time from 4th grade up until Mindy got married. I practically lived there. You always made the best bacon and biscuits. Actually, I never ate anything that you made and didn't like. Football games, will never be the same without you. You would always be like the only person in the stands cheering along with the cheerleaders. You are the most dedicated Rocket fan there ever was.
I can't believe you won't be there on my birthday. I don't want to lay you to rest on my birthday, I just don't. But there's really no other way to do it. You gave the best hugs.
I know you're in a better place now, but no one will ever replace your kindness in this world.
I love you, Nana.

I miss last semester.

I miss not having hard homework. I miss having a  good math teacher, because my geometry teacher is not nearly as good as my last math teacher. So, Mrs. Martin, if you ever read this(which you won't) I'd rather have ten pages of homework and good notes than crap notes and one page of homework...
And... i really can't think that much about anything else right now, cause my brain is dead.
Hearts and good math teachers
- Kimberlee.

College.

Today, we moved my stepsister in to UT Martin. And the whole time, I kept thinking that I'll be doing that in 2 and half years, I'll be doing that. And we hugged her bye and everything. And I just kept thinking that I'd be bawling my eyes out, when my parents leave me for the first time like that. I'd be scared and excited at the same time.
and that in 6 months or so, we'll be doing that with my brother. It's crazy how fast time goes by.
Sorry about the short post today, but i'm super tired and about to go to bed!
Hearts and college.
- Kimberlee.

Blah.

I feel like that today. I just feel like crap for no reason.. Do you ever have days where you feel like crying and you don't even know why?
Today's one of those days for me. And nothing bad has happened at all. I got sad last night getting pictures for Tony and Brittney's scrapbooks for graduation. But I didn't cry, I didn't even let myself think about it for a long time. So, I really don't know why I feel like crap. My new years resolution, one of them, is to be more positive. And, here I am being mopey for no reason at all.
So, let's think on the bright side. I'll be 16 in 10 days and my party is two weeks from today, which is going to be so much fun and I can't wait.
This song just came on my Pandora, "That rebel moon is shinin', those stars burn like diamonds, hell bent on chasin' down that crazy slope, i'll follow you you're leading, to the first sweet taste of freedom, i've got forever on the tip of my tongue." I lovee that song.
It's by Gloriana. :)
Hearts and good, happy, music.
- Kimberlee.

Not so bad.

Today was kind of a rollercoaster, it started out good. Then it got bad. Then it got better. lol
  English isn't gonna be bad, I'm just gonna have to try, which I like doing as opposed to useless crap. Theater should be fun but we have some crappy people in there that aren't gonna try.
  French, will suck. We have a bunch of idiots in there, and our teacher is going to hate us, that's how geometry is going to be too. Plus, hard.
  I don't have much else to talk about, sooo sorry about the short and crappy post today!
Hearts and having to try.
- Kimberlee.

New Semester.

Tomorrow, the new semester starts. And, I'm excited to see my friends, and have Theater 2 and French 2.
But, Honors English is gonna be hard. I think the reason I'm having issues with it now, is cause of stupid Lord of the Flies, none of that book stuck with me. It just pissed me off because it was so boring and hard to read.
  Well not hard to read, I just didn't like the way it was written. So, yeah. And Geometry is going to suck soo bad. I don't even know if I have anyone in there, and I hate math so much.
  On the bright side, Theater is going to be so much fun! And so is French because I have it with Dylan and Paige. :)
  But, I have a really strong feeling this semester is going to go by all too fast. And adulthood and the real world are approaching for the seniors everyday. And it scares the hell out of me, and I'm not even a senior. But I have a sister and 5 brothers in that class, and I'm going to be so sad to see them graduate. Well, I'll be happy for them, but sad, because they're leaving. Well, I don't think my brother will be going very far. Or I hope not.
  Today, I got the top to my leg. And my leg guy, who I've been going to since I was about 5, was  being hilarious. lol And, I finally figured what to do with my old legs, I'm going to bring them back to him, because he takes the old parts to legs, for people that don't have insurance and stuff to use. Although, most of my legs are pretty battered. lol
  I'm gonna stop rambling now :)
Hearts and old leg parts!
- Kimberlee.

Shopping!

So, since I don't have anything to blog about today, I thought i'd show you guys what I got shopping today!
And, share a few stories from the day, so I guess I techinically do have something to blog about!
I got this hoodie at Forever 21, and I love it! It's so comfy! :)

                                              I also love this shirt, which I got at Body Central. :)

I got my yoga pants at Body Central too :)

                                                    Andd I got this necklace at Claire's :)

 I also got underwear at Aerie, but  you don't get to see that. lol
While we were eating lunch Katie said that sign says natural lemonade, as you know, opposed to fake lemonade. lol And this girl took a picture of it cause she thought it was funny. lol
And we also went to this western store(not my choice) cause Katie wanted to go. And I was bored to death there, there was some pretty hideous stuff there..
So, that was pretty much my day! It was pretty good overall though :)
Sorry this post sucked!
Hearts and Natural Lemonade.
- Kimberlee. :)

Class > Trash.

  This morning, my mom text me and said "I'm glad your brother isn't going out with ______, (you don't need to know her name, but those of you that know me, will know exactly who i'm talking about.) Go look on so and so's page and see what she's saying. I know you think your life is boring, but I'm glad you're not like those girls, Kimbo."

   It's kind of a big deal that she said that, because for the past two years, I've been saying I want to do things more, and she always told me to make more friends and do them. I have amazing friends, but we all do our separate things most of the time, I think that will change once we can all drive. :) But anyways, and I've told her, I don't want to be friends with the other girls at our school, well not this specific group of people that I used to be friends with, they're stupid and dramatic, and to be frank, easy, and trashy.
   My mom saw this post of this girl, cussing out another girl, and it turned into a fight about class, and being trashy. And, if any of you saw this on Facebook, then it's obvious that they're both trashy and ignorant, and it just proved that by the fight they're getting in. They were both dropping the F bomb every two words. Which don't get me wrong, I cuss, but I don't do that, and I'd NEVER do it on facebook where I'm friends with a bunch of a adults. That's what my mom was saying, that she was saying, that this girl is friends with a bunch of adults and she's just plastering it all over the place. It's not cool.
  I'd much rather sit at home on a Saturday night texting my friends, reading, watching movies, hanging with my family, and be a 'loser' than go to a party and get wasted like this group of people we're talking about do.
So, here's to being classy!
Hearts and Class.
- Kimberlee

Thoughts from yesterday and today.

1. Right after i posted yesterday, Vanderbilt lost at the end of their game. And i had an awful flashback of the last 9.6 seconds of our football season this year. When we lost. I'm not going to go into detail because i posted a very lengthy blog about it after it happened. But, i seriously teared up thinking about it. I wondered when i'd see a team lose that deserves the win, that i won't flashback to that night..

2. I love my little cousins so much. They're so cute.

3. My little cousin Akin has the best manners. He knocked every time he wanted to come in my room and see what me and Austin were doing. lol

4. Close families fight too much.

5. I was perfectly happy with not having anyone to kiss. I kissed the cutest baby in the world instead. Which is better than any boy any day of the week.

6. A few minutes after the ball dropped my mom said, "2012, the year Tony graduates and Kimberlee turns 16." I think that's exactly what this year is for her. No mother wants there kids to grow up, well, they want us to live, they just liked us better as kids, because they don't feel like we should already be growing up. My memay says i should be 4 and tony should be 6. I don't feel like we should be this old yet really, either.

7. My new year's resolution is to get in shape and be more positive. :)

How was your new years? What's your resolution? :)
Hearts and New beginnings. :)
- Kimberlee.