First off, I was having a good weekend, up until this morning. Last night and yesterday were amazing. I was in the beauty pageant, although I didn't place I had a lot of fun. here's a pic of my formal wear. :)

Afterwards, I went to Sara's birthday party and had a blast! I was sad I missed the beginning, but it was super fun while I was there.
But this morning, I woke up to my parent's fighting.
And my mom has been super stressed out lately because of my Pawpaw(her dad) has cancer and is extremely sick and my Memay is acting absolutely ridiculous about it. I don't even know how to describe my grandmother. She's gone completely insane since Pawpaw has gotten sick.
And my stepdad doesn't understand. And so, that's why they're having problems.
So that brings me to why I'm almost in tears, my memay called me demanding I come help with pawpaw's hospital bed, because apparently she can't make up a twin size bed? I went up there. I made up the bed. And my pawpaw doesn't even remotely look the man I remember. He hasn't eaten since December. Cause he has throat cancer, and they burned his throat in radiation, and it hasn't fully healed yet. So he's dropped like 50lbs. and he's not under weight now, he just used to be really heavy, and that's just how he was. And he's afraid if he eats, he'll throw up, and he's sick of throwing up. And if he doesn't eat soon... then we're going to lose him... and I don't know what we'll do with my memay. But I know that my mom, and me and my brother will go insane, because she can't do a damn thing on her own. And it will be awful. So before I start really crying, I'm going to get off here and watch my show and try to cheer up.
Hearts and holding on
- Kimberlee.
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