11 more things. :)

Elizabeth tagged me again. So here we go!

1.If you were to receive 1 million dollars, what would you do?

- Pay off my mom's bills. Buy my dad what he wanted (he wouldn't pay off his bills if I gave him the money). Whatever was left would go to my college fund.

2.If you were to lose a body part and never be able to have it replaced, what would you lose?

- My right pinky finger. I need my left for guitar.

3.If you had to chose one over the other to never see again, would you chose to see you best friend over your sibling?

- My best friends are like my siblings. I can't do that. I love them all too much.

4.Are you an optimist or a pessimist and why?

- Both. Sometimes I'm totally negative, and sometimes I'm really sunshiney.

5.What are you willing to die for?

- My family and a friends of course.

6.What makes a true friend?

- A true friend is someone who comes straight to your house when something is wrong. Someone that you can go a huge length of time without talking to and pick up where you left off. Someone that loves you despite your crappy qualities that we all possess.

7.Who is your favorite celebrity and why?

- SO MANY. Zooey Deschanel because she is an amazing person. Paul Walker because he is also amazing and I have wanted to marry him since I saw Fast and Furious in the 3rd grade. Brantley Gilbert. Taylor Swift. And if Bethany Hamilton counts, she's probably the most inspiring person to my life.

8.What is your favorite book and why?

- Hard question. I love so many books. Probably the Last Song. I loved that book. I've re-read it a few times.

9.Is lying okay

- Sometimes you just have to lie. Others, the truth is better.

10.Is Nutella pronounced (new-tella) or (nut-ella)?

- NUT-ella. 

11.When you die, where are you going?

- Heaven. :) I really hope. Someday I will ask God all the questions.

Hearts and my new Titanic poster thing. :)

- Kimberlee.

11 things.

Sara (Knocked Askew) Tagged me in this game :)

Rules Are:
#1 You must post these rules.
#2You must post 11 things about yourself.
#3 You must answer the question that the tagger set for you in their post and create 11 new questions for people you tag to answer.
#4 You must tag 11 people to do this meme and tell them on their blog.

My 11 Things

1. The beach is my absolute favorite place on the planet.
2. Sometimes I'm a little bit (really) country, and I'm proud of that.
3. However, I am not closed minded. And I tend to go a little crazy when people say ignorant things.
4. My mouth has NO filter. And I end up hurting people's feelings a lot, or embarrassing myself. I really dislike that quality. 
5. I'm going to become a Prosthetist. Even if that means moving to Florida to go to school.
6. My family is absolutely crazy, but I love them anyway.
7. I really miss some of my friends. I don't know how there's this huge distance between us now.
8. I have 3 best friends that I love to death and wouldn't trade for the world.
9. I would literally have given up every dime I had to go to the Brantley Gilbert concert on May 5th. But Alas, it wasn't meant to be. 
10. I tend to pick the wrong guys.

Sara's 11.

1. If you could only save one happy memory, knowing the rest of your memory would be erased, what memory would you choose? Oh! :) That's a ridiculously hard question that you have to answer. Choose wisely, young grasshoppers :)
- SO HARD!!! And I know it came from a part of City of Lost Souls too! lol So, actual answer is, I couldn't. One memory is not worth the rest of them. But if I was in a horrible car accident and all I could remember when I woke up? It'd probably be My mom, step-dad, brother and my Dad in the same room laughing and having real conversations. I love those kinds of times. They're very rare.
2. What is your ideal fictional character boyfriend or girlfriend? And DO NOT say anything relating to Twilight. If you do, you are henceforth banned from being tagged in any cool blog game :) Haha jk... mostly.
- Logan Thibault. Though, it does go against my no military, or former military rule. BUT He is amazing. And I love how strong he is.
3. Favorite movie quote of all time?
- Another hard one!  I love way too many movies. Probably would have to be, "And most of all, I'm scared of walking out of this room, and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I do when I'm with you." - Dirty Dancing.
4. Favorite flavor of candy?
- Don't really have one. But Dove chocolate is my favorite!!
5. If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?
- I've always loved the name Noelle. That's my mom's middle name. But, I think Kimberlee suits me better.
6. What is one thing you want to accomplish in life?
- Help other people. I don't want to live selfishly as the majority of people in this world do.
7. One thing you regret and would love to change about your past?
- I would like to change some things. But I wouldn't. They've made me who I am today.
8. Most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you in front of a crush?
- A friend of mine asking out someone that I had a crush on right in front of me and he said I quote, "Little nubby? No." Yeah. It was just FANTASTIC. Granted that guy is an idiot and I was in the 6th grade.
9. One thing you wish you could change about your appearance if anything?
- I just wish I didn't have so many zits. So, clearer skin.
10. Do you believe in true love? If so, why?
- I do. Firmly. I refuse to believe we were meant to be with the wrong people all our lives. I'll find him one day. :)
11. Favorite type of day?
- Sunny. With a light breeze. About 80. :)

My 11 Things.

1. If you had to choose one member of your family to live with for the rest of your life, who would it be?
2. If you saw a 100 dollar bill on the ground, saw the person that had just dropped it, would you put it in your pocket and pretend you didn't see that person? Or would you stop them?
3. Favorite Hobby?
4. Favorite kind of movie?
5. Do you like reading?
6. If you had to choose between having a child and having a good job and husband/wife, what would you choose?
7. Favorite time of day?
8. Most embarrassing thing to happen to you at school?
9. Happiest moment in your life to date?
10. Reality TV or fictional?
11. Favorite place in the world?

Tags, yo. :)

1. Jamie.
2. Elizabeth!
3. Dylan! Even though he doesn't have a blog, I just wanna know his answers. lol
4. I'm cheating because I'm tired and don't feel like tagging anymore. Night guys!

Gatlinburg is being awesome :)

The ride up was long. We got lost trying to get to our cabin. Because there wasn't there is a Foothill road and a Foothills road. We left off the s the first time and it took like an extra hour to find it. lol But we finally did :)
     Yesterday we went hiking. It was my first time hiking, we got in the river. :) it was super fun! Today we chilled all day and then went to downtown Gatlinburg and shopped, and ate at a really good mexican restaurant! I got a cute shirt. I also got a mustache ring which makes me super happy!
     Tomorrow we're going to the Titanic museum i'm so excited!!! :D
      Here's some pics :)

Breaking Tradition.

     My whole life, on memorial day weekend Friday, I've been packing to go to the beach. However this Friday, I'm packing to go to Gatlinburg.
    It's a weird feeling, not being so ecstatic that I can't sleep and knowing I'll be waking up at 4 in the morning to ride to Panama City Beach. Instead, I am excited to go to the mountains. And who knows, maybe I'll love it just as much as the beach (Very, very doubtful but possible.) The last time we went I was 2. So I don't remember it.
    I'm excited to go to the Titanic museum the most, probably. It's supposed to be really cool. I'm also excited about hiking for the first time. And floating in the river. I'm really really excited at the amount of pictures I will be taking. Lots of nature means lots of pictures. :) So, I'll keep you guys posted with pictures I'm sure. I'm taking my laptop. :)
Hearts and new adventures. :)
- Kimberlee.

Hey, I miss you.

I'm not going to say who this post is about. Mostly because I'm not good at expressing my feelings, and I'm afraid of what this person might say. But, knowing this person, she's pretty smart. She'll probably figure out it's about her. And to that, I'm leaving the ball in your court, friend.
      I miss you. I miss us staying up till 5 in the morning talking about absolute nonsense. Crying on your shoulder. Last school year, we were so so close. But sometime between mid summer last year and this school year. We stopped hanging out like we did. We just drifted apart. I don't know whose fault it is. I don't know if it's because of the worst decision I've ever made in my life, because that' s what my mom thinks. She thinks that's when things changed? And is she right? Maybe. I don't blame you for worrying about me. You had every right to. I don't know what happened to my brain. But I do know that we talked about it and you said  you were just happy nothing bad happened.
     Or is it because  you just got sick of me? I don't know. I couldn't tell you what happened. But I do know that I miss our friendship so much. I miss hanging out at your house. I miss you coming to my family functions. You are truly one of the best friends I've ever had and I want that back. You made me realize it's okay to be weird, dorky person that I am. You're one of the bravest people that I've ever met. And I admire you so much for expressing yourself the way that you do. You're going to make all your dreams come true, I'm sure of  that.
Well, girlfrand, I love you. And just wanted to get that off my chest.
- Kimberlee.

I'm not gonna cry, not gonna shed one single happy or sad tear.

The title to his post is from a song that was in the Senior video. As most of you know, my brother graduated from high school on Saturday morning.

     That in of itself is so surreal to me. Even watching him, my best friend Brittney, my brother's best friends, walk up to that podium and hear their name, and see them get their diploma, was just surreal. It still hasn't hit me. It hasn't really set in that I will no longer listen to his music on the way to school. That I will no longer scream at the top of my lungs for him at a football game. That I will no longer see him at school, get arrgravated waiting on him in the parking lot. 

     None of his friends will ever mess with me in the halls of Forrest high school ever again. I've always wished I could've been in their class. Always. With my select few friends, I would have loved to graduate alongside them this year. I don't like my class. My class is cliques galore. Tony's class is unified. Even the people that aren't friends really talk to one another. They love each other. My class is not like that. I could honestly care less about the majority of my class. I love some of them, but really, I don't really care.

    And that's bad, I know. I shouldn't feel  that way. I love school, and I love pep rallies and I love the atmosphere of games. But I can't help but feel like that most of what makes me love it so much will be gone with Tony not there. 

    Everyone loves Tony. He had high school in the palm of his hand. He was on the football team, got voted Best All Around by his classmates, graduated with honors. Everyone knows who he is. For the longest time, I was known as "Johnson's little sister" and that was perfectly okay with me. He's a good person to be known for. He's the kind of brother anyone would wish for. 

     It's going to be beyond weird when August rolls around, and I'll be a Junior and I'll be driving myself to school. He won't be there. Neither will any of his friends. Well, when I say his friends I mean the ones that are always at my house and that are like my own brothers. I'm going to miss them all so much. Granted none of them are going very far and I'll still see them on a regular basis. But still it'll be weird especially once football starts. 

    And so, I'm going to leave you with this. Cherish these last few years we have without responsibility and building homecoming floats, and helping people jump start their old cars in the parking lot after school. Cause those are the things you'll remember. 

Hearts and big brothers.

- Kimberlee.

You'll never know.

Before I start out with this post, I'm just gonna say that I have a million post ideas at the moment, but I'm going to pick the easy way out and go with this, an idea that my dear friend Sara borrowed from another blogger that I am now borrowing. :)

It's 20 things you'd never say to people to their face, but you can't say  who it is.

1. You deserve so, so much more than he's ever going to give you. I hope you see that before it's too late.
2. I'm beyond happy that we've become such good friends, and so sorry that I was too stupid to see how wonderful you are before.
3. I feel like I'm not a part of "our" group anymore. I feel like that I'm just a tag-along.
4. You're not the person I thought you were. You're stuck up and spoiled.
5. Stop needing everyone's approval. You're beautiful, you're just too busy piling on a lot of fakeness for you to notice. And for the love of God, pick one guy. 
6. I miss our friendship more than words can express. You give the best hugs.
7. You're turning into a beautiful woman and I'm so happy that I get to watch you grow up.
8. You're one of the happiest people I've ever met. You'll find a guy that will give you the world, just like you deserve.
9. Honey, the real world is not glitter and singing. Your dreams are far too high to fit your reality.
10. You say all you want is to get out of this town, and yet you are so naive that the rest of the world would eat you for breakfast.
11. Life really isn't that bad. You have a good life, you're just too focused on the negative to see that.
12. I'm sorry I treat you like crap sometimes, you hold this family together.
13. I want your approval so badly. 
14. I don't know why I'm still holding onto you. You obviously don't see any hope for us.
15. You could've been a good man. But you let bad things influence you, and you became exactly like your father.
16. You made me realize a lot about life. And how naive I was.
17. I can't believe you can sit there and do something like that when you have two precious babies and a husband that need you so much.
18. You are the most annoying person on the planet, and high school will be the only good time in your life.
19. I cried when I read what you wrote in my yearbook last year, so much has changed and I didn't even realize it.
20. You're a beautiful person, but you need to embrace the fun side of life and stop being so up tight.

Well, there you go. That was harder than I thought. Some people got two messages.

Hearts and saying how you really feel.

- Kimberlee. 

So many memories, so little time to make them.

     Today, we moved classes. Which, for those of you that don't know, that means the seniors moved to the floor on the gym, and all the other classes move to their new spot in the gym for next year. 
    And I remember in middle school when it was so exciting to do that, and today all I felt was sad. My brother, best friend, and his best friends, who are like my brothers, are graduating this year. And you know what that means? I only have two good years left with my best friends to make memories. 
    I love my friends so much. We already have great memories with this little time we've had in high school. I know they're only going to get better now that we can drive and see each other whenever we want. I'm excited for that. But I also dread when it won't be like that anymore.
    My brother and his friends are even closer than my group, they've spent nearly every weekend together since Freshman year. Plus, they all played football together which makes their bond even stronger. I'm so sad to see them go. 
     They're not even going far. The majority of them are going to MTSU, which is like 40 minutes from here. That doesn't matter though, because it'll never be the same. They'll never dress up all crazy for homecoming together, they'll never walk on that football field in their pads and jerseys, they'll never cheer at a pep rally together again.
     Which is depressing. I can't imagine being them right now. I'm going to be in their shoes in two short years and I'm terrified. They're going to be great though. 
Hearts and high school memories.
- Kimberlee. :)

Expectations.

     I think that my generation expects far too much from our parents, and not only do they expect it, but they don't appreciate it.
    Now, before I get into this I know that not all kids are thinks, I have friends of mine that their parents pay for everything and they totally appreciate it. But for the most part, they have no clue. 
   I can't tell you how many people I've heard just bitching about not getting their driver's license on the day of  their birthday. I turned 16 January 17th. I won't be getting my license till the end of this month, cause my mom had to finish paying for her car before she could pick me up on her insurance. 
    For those of you that don't know, my mom struggles. My dad doesn't help out very much.
    When I do get my car, which will be in June, I fully intend on getting a job. And guess what? I have to pay for every drop of my gas, just like my brother did. Just like everyone should in my opinion. It's different if you take your little brother or sister to school, I think because that's a trip that your parents don't have to make anymore. But if they're going to the same school as you, than tough crap because if they gave you your car you should at least pay for your gas. 
     I also think it's ridiculous that our parents take out second mortgages to pay for college. I have to pay for my own college, my parents can't afford to send me. I have to get scholarships, grants, and student loans. My parents are going to help me pay for stuff, yes, but they're not going to pay my tuition or anything like that, because they can't. They do all they can to help my brother and I and we appreciate that.
     I feel like for the most part though, people are just ungrateful and don't give a crap anymore. And that bothers me so much. So, next time stop and think before you start to complain about how you didn't get that thing that means nothing that you just had to have.
Hearts and appreciating your parents!
- Kimberlee. :)

Sarah's Key

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't posted in sooo long! I've been super busy with everything lately.
So right now I'm reading Sarah's Key by Tatiana De Rosnay. She's a French author. We watched this movie in my French class, and it was really good.

I saw the book at Target and I bought it. Right now I'm on page 64. It's so sad. It's about the Velodrome d'Hiver roundup in 1942 in France. Which just recently the French admitted to having concentration camps of their own. Most French people don't even know about it. There was over 4,000 children killed from France. about 13,000 French people were taken to Auschwitz and never came back.

The book is about a little girl who gets taken to the camps and locks her little brother in the closet at home to be safe when they got arrested, not knowing they'd never see their house again. You also follow the story of the American journalist that found this story. She now lives in the apartment the little girl and the family lived in, with her French husband.
But anyway, the little girl describes everything, and everyone knows how horrible the Holocaust was.
The American woman gets upset because she thinks her husband's family had something to do with the family getting arrested, because her husband's grandparents bought the apartment shortly after the family was taken.
And she can't fathom the idea of willingly sending innocent people to their imminent death.

Which made me think, what would I do? If I were in that situation, and someone told me that if I didn't tell them where these people were, then I myself, and my family would die. Then would I sacrifice me, and the people I love the most for the greater good? And the answer is, I don't know. Either way people would be dying, and that fact alone would make it so difficult. I guess I would see what my family wanted to do, and if they were okay with us all dying together, I guess I could live with that. Because if you're alone, then life is nothing. I'd rather die with my family, than live with a guilty conscience my whole life.
And if my family wasn't willing to die for another family? Then I don't know. I can't put myself in that situation, I honestly don't know.

So, the question is, what would you have done?
Hearts and doing the right thing.
- Kimberlee.